For this child I prayed, and the LORD has granted me my petition which I asked of Him. (1 Samuel 1:27 NKJ)
After the birth of my second daughter, I was content with the size of our family. That was until she reached five years old. Surprisingly, I started having an overwhelming desire to have another baby. Since my husband didn't feel the same way, I prayed and asked God to take this longing out of my heart or to put it in my husband's heart. Week after week, nothing changed except this strong feeling was increasingly growing.
We lived in an apartment during this time and I would regularly go out after dinner to take a walk around the neighborhood. It was during these strolls that I would pour out my heart to God about this issue.
Many walks and prayers later, the Lord did respond to my request. The morning I found out we were going to have another baby I was excited! To my surprise, my husband was thrilled to find out about it too.
After my husband left for work, I sat down at the table to do my Bible study. I immediately thanked God for answering my prayers and for giving me the desire to have another baby. I believe He was preparing me for what He already wanted to give us. During my study, I came across a verse in the book of John. As I read it several times, it became evident to me that the Holy Spirit was speaking.
For just as the Father raises the dead and gives them life, even so the Son gives life to whom He is pleased to give it (John 5:21 NIV).
Although this Scripture may not be referring to pregnancy, that is exactly what it meant to me that morning. God was telling me that it was His pleasure to give me the life (baby) that was growing inside me. For many months I thought the Lord wasn't listening to my prayers, but as I read that verse He let me know that He was there all along.
My faith has grown a lot since those early years of marriage, but when I remember back to that morning and when I see the face of my precious son, it reminds me of a special time in my walk with God. For years, there have been many things I continue to ask God for. But, I now know that God is hearing me and if it pleases Him to do so, He will answer me in His own timing. In the meantime, I'll just keep praying.
Lord, thank You for answering my prayers. Thank You that you definitely are listening to me. Please help me not to get discouraged when you delay or if you choose not to answer the way I think You should. I love You. In Jesus' name, amen.
June 11, 2008